03 June 2012

of rice and rivers




The striking landscape printed on the back of China’s ¥20 bill is equal parts geographic fortune and artistic vision. Cash registers, pockets, and purses across China are stuffed with these limestone formations climbing from their shallow river. How many times a day does this scenery change hands? Billions upon billions?

Everybody here knows the scene, just as Americans know the face of a penny. They also know where to find it: wedged in the Li River, 90 km south of Guilin.

Last weekend we jetted off in pursuit of these exotic scrapes of rock and I suppose that in the most generous and general way you could say that we found them… problem being that as we traveled the length of the river we realized our goal was a moving target that was literally shifting at the pace of the river.

While everyone will tell you that the ¥20 view is along the Li River (漓江), no one can tell you exactly where. Determining the exact location is a lot like trying to hammer down where your Grandma first laid eyes on your Grandpa – there’s a great story that everyone tells but no way to pin down the precise geographic coordinates. So, as is often the case when traveling in China, it’s best to drop any scientific expectations you might have and instead go with the flow of the story.

This means that if, while you’re floating along the river enjoying an endless parade of karst rocks and smooth waters, someone tells you with complete and stone-faced confidence that at that very moment, that at that very second, you are staring at the one and only famous ¥20  scene, just go ahead and believe them.

We believed them three different times.

The first time was on the raft we hired to travel down the river from Yang Di (杨堤). The raft was made of big plastic tubes rather than bamboo and was operated by a man who was far more interested in his cell phone than he was the scenery. It was clear he’d been doing this for a while.

Before we left the dock in Yang Di he had masterfully fashioned a funnel out of an empty water bottle and then used it to fill the engine with gas. He then used said engine to scoot us along the river at a goodly pace. Any whispers of charm that might have come with personally rowing along at a leisurely pace had evaporated at about the same time as the engine had arrived.

He knew his way along the river and from his seat at the back of the raft he not only pointed out when the famous scene was in front of us, but had also chimed in to offer advice as Shi-wen engineered a photo of the two of us with the scenery in the background.

Shi-wen couldn’t see the shot he was framing up, and could only extend his arm while pointing the camera back in our direction, but the driver had a clear view of the camera’s display screen. So while Shi-wen stretched and angled, the driver glanced at the screen, looked at us and then at the rocks, pointed a little to the left, then a touch to the right. Then gave us the thumbs-up, perfect.


The scenery itself was imperfect but if you looked at it with artistic license, and some squinting of the eyes, you could make out something like the famous view. Also, our driver had been quick to inform us that the view on the bill was actually an edited version of this scene, the craggy outcrops squeezed closer together to make for a more dramatic scene. This was a nice touch to his story and smoothed any conflicts that arose when comparing the ¥20 bill to the reality of what was in front of our faces.

This was the first time we saw the scene. The second was along the shore.


After our journey down the river we disembarked from our raft and started down a main road that ran along the river. Along the way we noticed a neglected-looking sign hidden in an unassuming alcove off the road. It had a picture of the ¥20 note and seemed to be saying that if we went down the flight of stairs behind the sign we would see the famous scene.


So we did.

For those paying attention to simple concepts like space and time it was really clear that this scene was unrelated to the one we’d seen from the river. In fact, it was facing the opposite direction. But the oddest part was not the location of the scene but rather the lack of other people checking out what is supposed to be one of China’s most famous natural landscapes.

There was just one other family standing there on the landing. Not that either of us wanted to be sharing the small wooden structure with a larger crowd of people, but skeptics might wonder why, if this was really “the” view, there weren’t as many people here as we’d seen floating down the river?


Not unexpectedly, the second view was about as convincing as the first – which is to say that neither was particularly convincing. (Although this view got points for having an actual sign.)

The third viewing came after lunch which was a very, and unfortunately, enlightening meal.


After our view from the landing we made our way to Xing Ping (兴坪), a place where if you happen to trundle down the right streets is a great chance to see a certain slice of small town life. We wandered their alleys for a bit, glancing in doorways and windows, watching as people sat at tables playing cards as their TVs played nonsense in the background. We lost count of the number of Mao portraits we saw displayed in homes and the number of times we saw pomelo rinds drying in the sun.



As we wandered down quiet passageways we also found a public restroom. It was beneath the branches of an old reaching tree and sat beside a small, quiet stretch of water. As one might imagine, this dirt-floored open-air shed added to the “you are no longer in the big city” atmosphere, as did the water buffalo lounging around outside in the stream.




We eventually came around a corner and found a restaurant doing a brisk business with several tables of Chinese tourists. We asked for a menu and were handed a version in English. Shi-wen wisely recommended I also grab the Chinese menu for comparison.

I grabbed a Chinese version from behind the counter and we compared the offerings and prices. Both areas had fairly drastic deviations. If we were being nice we’d say that this establishment had included the price of English translation services in its English menu prices. If we were being less generous we might say they were taking advantage of people who don’t speak Chinese.

Seeing as we speak Chinese, and on good days can read a Chinese menu, we ordered off the Chinese version. This was as much for the prices as the selection. We ordered soy-sauced tofu with tomatoes and peppers, along with a dish of bitter melon and egg. The bitter melon dish was actually one of the items mysteriously absent from the English menu.


The meal was good but as we were leaving the restaurant Shi-wen saw something that made us very happy we hadn’t ordered any meat.

As we passed a waitress in the process of cleaning up another table, Shi-wen saw that she was carefully removing uneaten meat from the plates and placing the pieces in a separate clean dish. It was kind of shocking but kind of not, and based on the reactions people had to my telling of this anecdote, it seems that Chinese really like to think this woman was saving the pork for her dog.



After lunch we endeavored to find a way to a well-known fishing village (鱼村) that can only be reached via a long hike or a river cruise. We opted for the cruise but first had to navigate a mess of vaguely bureaucratic confusion in which the ticket office next to the dock refused to sell us tickets for the outing. They also refused to say why.

It was infuriating: there were passengers boarding a boat within eyesight of the office but the workers inside just kept dancing around our request to buy tickets.

In the middle of this frustrating scene were two local women we couldn’t shake. They kept insisting they would “help” buy our tickets. These were the same women who had come running at us as we first approached the dock, peppering us with questions about where we were going and how many tickets we needed.

The whole thing was suspicious, but we eventually discovered that in an alternate universe kind of way this was the best way to get tickets.

We learned this because as we were asking passengers boarding the boat how they managed to buy tickets we ran into a Chinese tour guide who offered to take us over to the ticket office. Once we got there she tried to convince the workers to sell us tickets. Again, they refused.

She then offered to buy the tickets on our behalf. The office at first refused even this but then eventually agreed to sell her our tickets for ¥168 each.

As we got ready to buy the tickets, the two women who had been following us around the dock insisted on “helpfully” purchasing our tickets for us at the discount price of ¥100 each. The reason for the discount was unclear, but what was absolutely, crystal clear was that this little exchange was exactly what the ticket office had wanted all along.

We were worried the boat was going to leave without us so we gave up understanding and gave them our money.

There’s no way to know if this little operation is related to corruption (Chinese are the first to suggest this angle) or to generating income for locals (naturally the touts are the ones suggesting this) but as a Chinese language student I’m just glad that our exasperation was related to the confusions of culture rather than language.

When we finally boarded the boat we realized we had spent so much time fighting to buy a ticket that we had forgotten to ask where we were going. But it was too late, we were already sandwiched in with the crowd of other tourists.

Shi-wen and I had window seats facing each other across a small table. A pair of Chinese tourists sat next to us, sharing the table, and by the end of the tour each had handed his camera across the table to his friend and asked to have his photo taken with the foreigner sitting next to him.

My new joke, when asked to take a photo with a stranger, is to say with genuine concern, “You know I am not famous, right?” Everyone laughs, but then they still want to take the photo.

The main topic of Shi-wen and my conversations while riding the boat – aside from the beautiful scenery which, in the spirit of there’s a first time for everything, even included a pair of amorous water buffalo – was the odds on whether or not the boat would actually be stopping at the fishing village.

Even though our tickets said we were headed to the village we knew better than to assume this somehow ensured we were stopping there. Live in China for two days and you’ll realize that everything is fluid, so it’s best to keep your expectations equally so.

The good news was that we did stop at the village.

The bad news was that our visit was to be managed Chinese tour group style.

One of the boat’s employees, a megaphone-wielding woman who had previously used her electronically-amplified voice to extol the benefits of having your photo taken with cormorant fishing birds for the low, low price of  ¥12, now announced that we had 15 minutes to look around the village. She concluded the screeching announcement with an ominous warning: If you don’t return in time we will definitely leave without you.


We looked at our watches and then scurried around the lonely village, taking photos that reminded us of some of the more desolate towns we had visited in Italy. In the small mess of corridors we quickly ran into our seatmates who said they were heading back, there wasn’t enough time. We eventually followed, but not before taking several more photos of village chickens and one of pomelos taped to a tree.



Once we were all back on the boat, it started making its way back to town and we were allowed to hang out on the roof. It was at this point that we saw the third version of the famous scenery.

Shi-wen and I were standing at the back when a tour guide who had been talking with us earlier pointed to the right and said, “This is it, this is the famous view!” People around us starting pulling our their ¥20’s and taking photos, so we did the same.


Of the three this seemed the least convincing but since everyone else was so enthusiastic it felt odd not joining in. And what if the third time was the charm?

After our day on the river we took the public bus back to Yang Shuo (阳朔) for about a dollar and the hour’s drive through the countryside was worth far more than that.

Living in a big Chinese city you are exposed to a certain kind of China. And while people living in these cities face their own urban challenges, these are nothing like the challenges faced by the people who live outside of China’s urban sprawl. Coming to places like this you can finally understand why.


We saw homes with dirt floors and no running water. Women carried live chickens by their feet at bus stops, farmers in rice paddies used their hands to work through the mud, and workers headed home along the roadside with hoes and shovels propped on a shoulder.




Kids rode in wheelbarrows attached to bicycles, tractors chugged along with their motors exposed, and farmers in slippers led oxen down the side of the road. Dogs stood in the middle of main drags eating road kill while cars and trucks and buses flew past in both directions.




On Sunday we drove some 150 km to Long Sheng(龙胜)and spent three hours on these roads, really feeling the pattern and rhythm of rural space. We were speeding through the countryside, zooming past ultra-green rice paddies in the near and limestone towers as sharp as shark teeth in the far.

The car was going fast, passing buses and trucks, and honking to let the scooters and the bikes know we were close. We’re blurring along and then we come to a town, a small blip of a center on this path, and so we slow. We drive down the main drag and see what a main drag in this life looks like.

It’s a slow drag, a different drag… the kind of drag where women sit outside holding babies on their laps watching traffic. There are people working and sometimes there is a hill of oranges that a dump truck has released, and there are men and women filling gusset bags with oranges and filling the air with a sweet citrus smell that the car grabs and traps and takes along for a few fragrant seconds.

There are things burning, always things burning… Out of mill chimneys and in the fields and on the road’s edge next to the children playing in the dust. Black smoke and white smoke and grey smoke. It all rises and dissipates.

But somehow still the air is clear and clean. And even though driving behind a slow-moving bus or a sputtering truck will clog and taint the clarity, it is still not like the air in Chengdu.

This neglected countryside lacks infrastructure but at least it has the sky. Out here there is more of it, more air, more breath. So you take it in with deeper drags.

It’s a long jarring ride from Yang Shuo to Long Sheng, a township about 90km north of Guilin (桂林). I say jarring because as you draw closer to Long Sheng you start to climb the sorts of mountain roads with rock slides, the kinds of mountain roads with drivers laying on horns that make a sound as much about hope as warning.


We saw only one accident. Buses that had been traveling in opposite directions had passed too closely and scraped into each other. It had happened before we got there, and there was just enough space for us to squeeze by and continue on our way.


We went to Long Sheng to visit the famous LongJi TiTian (龙脊梯田), the Dragon Spine Rice Terraces, and we chose to explore the Da Zhai (大寨) terrace area which we’d heard was quieter and less overrun than the other choices. Once we were there we concluded that the relative quiet might be due to the fact that you actually have to hike your way up to the postcard views.


There is one exception. People who are unwilling or unable to hike can pay to be carried up the winding paths on a sedan chair. We only learned this when Shi-wen glanced over the side of the hill and noted, “Someone’s being carried up on a chair!”


Shortly thereafter a not un-large woman was presented to us in a reclined position. Aside from the woman, her bags, as well as those of her friends, were also being transported by locals. They carried the backpacks and purses in over-sized woven baskets on their backs.

As we stood there sweating through our clothes, the basket carriers made climbing up steep, slender paths look perfectly normal. And they were not young; the lady tasked with hauling the gear of the reclining tourist was a good decade older at least.


Reclining tourists aside, the hike was stunningly beautiful. The terraces are configured out of mountains and mud, with a quiet trickle of water escaping from each paddy.

To weave between the levels and the pools – to see farmers slapping mud on the walls to make them taller and to see the footprints they’ve left in the silt-y floors of the unplanted paddies – makes you realize these are nothing less than agricultural art.


These terraces are something that only hands can make out of mountains. And to see it before the green rice plants are forced into the mud, to see it with only the water in its basins, is like seeing a thousand undulating mirrors pointed to the sky.

It is beautiful and quiet and strange. They hug the mountains and turn with the terrain. And because the sky was cloudy silver they reflected the glow rather than letting you see the rich mud at their floors.


As we came back down we passed through a bamboo-forested patch and could finally understand why so many poems have been written of bamboo and bamboo glades. The quiet and the lift of bamboo is wholly different from the strength and weight of America’s oaks and pines.

As we walked down this stream-ridden path pairs of locals occasionally came up. They wore traditional clothes and rubber boots and carried farming tools on their shoulders. We would say, “你们好” and they would respond in kind. Who knew what they thought of us, all sweaty with legs shaking, as they sailed through their upward climb.


The town had what you might expect of a small cove nestled in the big mountains: a shop that sold ice cream to tourists, a Party office with China’s one-child policy outlined on a large poster out front, and a basketball court where a donkey tied to the basket had recently relieved himself.


Of course the town was made up of more than ice cream and donkeys, and the truth is that it really reminded us of Switzerland. The entire hike did. Not only because of the stunning natural scenery but also because of the style of architecture.


The easiest way to describe the wooden structures that dotted the terraced hills would be to call them Chinese chalets. Made of wood, they're at the same time resilient and welcoming. Seeing how the aesthetics of China and Switzerland can have so much in common really highlights the heavy hand that nature plays in guiding culture.

As we left Da Zhai we stopped at one of the smaller villages along the road to look around, and noticed a pair of local women washing their long hair in the stream.


It was a disarmingly private moment and we quietly watched as one of the women dipped her head deep into the flowing water and then raised it out, combing the long swath of hair as it left the water. It was quiet and beautiful, a small personal moment in the midst of a giant space.


Where we had stayed in Yang Shuo was also sweepingly silent. It was outside of town and at night there were only the voices of crickets and frogs. It was a pitch-black swath of land and had it not been so cloudy I’m convinced we might have seen the Milky Way.

Galaxies aside, we were surprised by how many must-see Chinese wonders we were able to cross off our lists in one go. The only question is whether or not we get extra credit for seeing the ¥20 scenery three times.

But I suppose that wouldn’t be fair… seeing as I’m not quite sure we can confirm we ever saw it at all.

28 May 2012

the conversation starter: 栀子



My teacher came to class carrying two bouquets, one for herself and another meant for me. Each was a small roughshod bouquet of white gardenias. They were jacketed in their own leaves and wrapped with grey plastic twine at the stems. The blossoms smelled of vanilla and rain and nighttime, and for an afternoon our classroom breathed that heady air.

When I left school I held the bouquet close so I could smell it as I walked. Only two of the blossoms were open: one wide and falling, the other fresh and strong. That night two more flowers unraveled from their buds, their petals at first twisted and spiraled, then later full and flat.

But before the flowers took up residence in their vase, Chengdu noticed me carrying them. I walked into a bakery for a loaf of anise bread and the women working there quickly noted their fragrance. Security guards nodded to the bouquet as I walked past. And the pair of parking lot attendants I see on my daily walk to and from school went out of their way to say something new.

In the a.m. they usually say, 上班了, “You’re going to work.” In the p.m. they say, 下班了, “You’re going home.” It’s the standard greeting and there’s not much more you can say in those brief moments. But on this day they switched it up and said something different. 

They said, “You have flowers.”

Yes, I responded, I have flowers. Then we all smiled and I kept walking.

And in the way that Chinese people believe greeting someone by stating the obvious is meant to make you feel closer, it seems for once it actually did. 

20 May 2012

is that something you eat?


My teacher and I spent Thursday morning exploring a park that celebrates one of China’s greatest poets. Chengdu is very proud that a peaceful patch of bamboo and flowers once played host to Du Fu’s grass-thatched hut. His was a five-year stay – less than a blip in the face of 5,000 years of history – but facts and figures haven’t dimmed Chengdu’s passion for embracing this Tang dynasty superstar as their own.


The brevity of his residence is dismissed by a stone marker posted near the ruins. The inscription, which you read from right to left – because if I’ve learned anything over the past two years it’s that Chinese delights in making itself difficult – proposes that when mentioning Du Fu, one can overlook the place of his birth and the place of his death, but one cannot forget his thatched cottage in Chengdu. Not that they're biased or anything.

The park is a popular tourist site but it’s also a place where regular people go about their days. Groups of older men come together to “walk their birds.” Each lugs his own birdcages to the park, peels back the red fabric covers shielding the delicate inhabitants and hangs them in the trees for a spell while chatting with his buddies.

I crossed the lawn for a closer look into one of the cages and the bird inside was the same kind as those flying around the park. I couldn't tell if the outing was an invigorating out-of-doors experience for the creature or a crushing reminder of what life was like before being relocated to its current quarters.

Newspaper readers and knitters placed thermoses of tea off to the side and went about their efforts, while letter writers and musicians practiced their arts in the shade of tall and sleepy bamboo. Kids under the care of their grandparents fed crackers to fish so fleshy and active that they seemed on the cusp of making the evolutionary leap into the lives of legged beasts. 


In a newer park located just outside of Dufu’s we found small bands of men and women playing instruments and singing, while more organized choruses carrying sheet music cowed to the demands of musical directors who urged, 来一次!One more time! 

There was also a bride doing her best to ignore the sticky threat of an ice cream wielding tag-along as she posed for wedding photos. Her steely calm is most likely grounded in the fact that this is not a dress she has purchased herself, but rather a rental provided as part of the photography package.


Dufu’s park is a nice place to be. The paths are cool and shady, and the doors are different shapes. There are lanterns in the eaves and ponds in the distance. A giant bell hangs at the top of a tower and from that height you can see the rest of the city in the grey scrubby distance.


But a morning like this begs the question, how do you keep a good day going?

With a leisurely lunch, of course.

My teacher invited me to try a favorite dish of hers at a favorite place. So we drove to the restaurant and joined two lone diners and a team of bored staff milling around the empty dining room. My teacher explained that most people come there for dinner and she also mentioned that the women next to us were from Shanghai. She could tell by the dialect they spoke. 

Then she asked if there was anything I wouldn’t eat. I said I would eat whatever she ordered except for offal. She said ok and ordered two dishes. They were not offal. They were pig ears and mudfish.

Pig ears and mudfish.

Were I not sitting down to a meal in China I would not have associated these two items with anything I'd purposefully put in my mouth and chew. But if you’re willing to go with the flow and not look back then this path is inevitable.

The "path" is a stream of moments that strike as strange to western eyes. And as they crash into your space you have a thousand opportunities to ask yourself why you think the way you do and why you see the world a certain way.

If you decide to grab hold of your notions and flee the scene no one will be surprised. You’re not from here and the people who are from here will be the first ones to suggest this as your excuse. 

But if you don’t accept that notion, and if you don’t want them to either, than you can belly up and dig in. So we washed our chopsticks in our tea – cleaning them with tea is better than not cleaning them at all – and dug in.


The ears came to the table first. They were room temperature slices that demanded very active chewing due to the disconcertingly crunchy layer of cartilage sandwiched in the middle. This is a perfect example of how the Chinese palette appreciates a food’s texture as much as its taste. No one minds having to work for the pleasure of a good dish and the work itself is part of that pleasure. 

Once you discover that after all of the chewing there's a real taste to what you're eating, and that it’s a salty smoky taste, you’re willing to keep up with the work of it. I'd also suggest you take advantage of the pile of chili pepper sitting next to the ears on the plate.

"Sitting next to the ears on the plate..." That's certainly the first time I've used those words in describing a meal. 

But as long as we're getting into descriptions, I'll say that pig ears taste about as close to bacon as something that's not bacon can get. And really, couldn't we just consider them as bacon from a different neighborhood of the pig?

The second dish was a fragrant vat of spices and oil that held a mess of small ugly fish. Their heads, which had been disengaged from their bodies, were lurking alongside the garlic and celery vines. The lack of heads is supposed to make the fish easier to eat although I doubt anyone mistakes this dish as something easy to consume.

Each slip of a fish holds a string of petite bones at its core. Eating the flesh without snagging a mouthful of tiny daggers is an art. Thankfully I received instruction from my teacher and learned that one is to start at the tail and gently use their lips to urge the flesh from the bones.

In this way you play to the direction of the spine and hopefully avoid taking in any more bones than is absolutely necessary. It’s careful work and the flesh is maddeningly fragile. But when you can steal away with a chunk of the complexly spiced fish it is absolutely worth it.

The eating was deliberate and slow-going and where on my teacher’s plate there was a calm stack of perfectly clean, silvery spines, mine held the site of a ham-fisted massacre. There was no doubt as to who was the beginner here. My "clean" bones lugged nearly as much meat as the amount I’d managed to extract and eat.

A large chunk of the refuse was due to a change I’d made mid-meal. It turns out that fish heads are easier to plunder than their bodies, so I started hunting for them instead. And if I hadn't already realized that this was something I’d never done before, my teacher took care to mention that she’d always thought westerners didn’t eat fish heads.

Later in the day Shi-wen found it necessary to first point out that dogs are the biggest fans of pig ears in the U.S., and second, that any fish drudging around in a Chinese river can’t possibly be all that good for you to eat. That’s fine, I said, but I’m still happy I put these things in my mouth. I’m also pretty pleased with myself for holding a set of chopsticks (and a tiny fish spine) with my right hand while taking a photo with my left.

And by the way, Shi-wen ate this stuff too.

My teacher is very considerate and before we’d even dug into our meal she’d had the waitresses separate out hearty portions for me to take home for Shi-wen to try. They were ladled into clear plastic bags, the standard way leftovers are packaged here.

That night I warmed the fish in the microwave and set the ears on a plate. Shi-wen and I sat down at the table and I tried to teach him how to avoid the mudfish bones. I recommended dipping the pig ears in the spice. 

He would flinch and I would try to convince.

Clearly something had shifted. 

Now I was the one selling pig ears and mudfish as perfectly normal to eat.

13 May 2012

get thee to bangkok



Move anywhere new and I promise there will be hate, at least at the start. The feeling eventually passes but in the beginning it’s a gut reaction that’s hard to avoid. We have lived in four countries over the past six years and I have hated: the paper-thin walls of apartments in Washington, DC, the emptiness of Milan in August, and the soju-kimchi haze of late night subway rides in Seoul. I am currently busy hating the sidewalks in Chengdu  or more specifically, the use of Chengdu's sidewalks as toilets.

But we don’t live in Bangkok so I didn’t have to hate anything there. We wanted to lounge around in a place that wasn’t China and this city fit the bill. People sometimes use the word “international” to describe a city, meaning that it has everything you're looking for from the modern world, but I’m starting to think that what we really mean is that it has all of the things a westerner expects. International or not, this westerner couldn’t have been happier.


The meals we had were a confluence of freshness, complexity, and bright flavors, and the hotel breakfast was so sprawling and overwhelming that we were tempted to stay there to eat away the day rather than go outside. But the best part is that you can eat the food without worrying that someone used shoe leather to thicken your yogurt or dredged cooking oil from the sewers and added it to your noodles. And yes, those things actually happen in China.

Our hotel had a chocolate boutique that sold painted chocolates with decadent fillings, boxes of rainbow-colored macaroons, and cake by the slice. Outside there was a palm tree ringed pool with British retirees drinking watermelon juice, Italian families nibbling on French fries, and this American couple reading magazines (Shi-wen) and studying Chinese (me) in the shade.


Being free to enjoy what we were eating was a welcome detour from the underlying anxiety that accompanies every meal in China. So we ate and ate and ate. We downed volcanic oysters and prawn curries and durian sticky rice. Jack fruit and pomelo salad and wildflowers dredged through green curry. Bangkok made it easy.

And even with all the eating Shi-wen was still able to fit into the tux he’d been fitted for on our first day there. This was due in large part to the hotel’s gym, which overlooked the pool and had working machines. I was stunned – probably because the last hotel gym I'd visited was a small room nudged behind the swimming pool, where a 1980’s era treadmill, a few hand weights, and a stationary bike that was listing to one side were all collecting dust in the dark. What can I say... live somewhere long enough and you adjust your expectations.

In other news, we went shopping in Bangkok and they had shoes in my size.

Coming back to Chengdu was a little like falling out of bed and hitting the floor with your face. Getting off the plane was the cue to start the fight. The fight to get your bag, the fight to get a cab, the fight to find the food you think is safe enough to eat. But once you live here long enough you forget about the extra energy you have to expend and it’s just the way that life is lived. This is good and necessary, but step away from it for any length of time and coming back is a thud.







I stay flexible. I weave around the spitting and the squatting and the children with no pants. I never upbraid the drivers who come alarmingly close to running me down on the sidewalks. I follow the food scandals and adjust accordingly.

In this way I live the life that China gives me. I am thrilled to have an opportunity to know this place and to live its life, and I genuinely like it here. But I still love a grocery store selling food you don't hear about on the nightly news and I never thought I’d be so giddy about kids wearing full coverage pants.

They have these things in Bangkok. They also have the feeling that you may not be so alone after all – that there might be other people out there who have the same expectations as you do about what city life might entail.

It’s just that they live three hours away. In Bangkok.